Well, this is officially my third attempt at trying to write this post, seriously... MY THIRD!
So princess has decided she is too big for daytime naps now, that means no more "me time" , i know, i know it's a very sad milestone, especially when she is in fact still getting tired enough in which she needs said nap, but instead bothers me with her tired crankiness. Oh joy!
Now, what happened on my Tuesday? I hit a standstill and i hit it hard. It made me realise my social life has gone out the window. I run out of things to clean. Yes thats right, as i was putting away hubby's freshly cleaned white shoes and football boots, i looked around and had nothing left to clean. This is a very sad realisation to make. No not the realisation that i may have OCD, but the fact i have no one who dare bothers to make time to socialise with me.
So instead i spend all my time at home cleaning, i ensure you my house is very clean. It's boredom, so bored that i went through and disinfected every single ball in my daughter's ball pit, so bored that i cleaned H's shoes.
Why is it that now i am a mum? People think i don't want a social life. It is really getting me down. Don't think i haven't tried either. Tried to make time with my current friends, Tried to make new friends through the form of online "Mother's Groups". Even my internet friends can't find time for me. All i want to know is what makes me such a horrible person. I know i am not perfect, oh no certainly not, but i know one thing i do extremely well is friendship. I thrive on friendship, and therefore always put my whole being into it.
*SIGH*
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